10 years ago, I was in Israel for my
sister's wedding. While I was there, I spent two weeks at the Dead
Sea for a skin condition I have.
Walking into the Dead Sea, I am waiting
for the magic. Nothing happens. I just keep walking as if it's a
regular beach. All of a sudden, I lose my balance and begin to fall.
At that very moment the miracle strikes. G-d catches me and I float,
not just float, but couldn’t sink if I tried. The miracles G-d put
in nature are are the most mind blowing. Air, earth and water that
cure people of so many ailments. I remember thinking at that time
that if all I leave here with is this lesson it would be enough. We
think we are in control, and the minute we realize that we are not,
G-d catches us.
Many years pass, and every once in a
while I remember how incredible it felt to be caught, then forget
again. Until now.
A month ago, my best friend, my rock,
my husband was diagnosed with ALS. The illusion of control was lost
completely. Our silly dreams of how much fun we would have once the
kids are older turned into ice cold fears.
My husband the singer, storyteller,
jokester, and generally the more talkative of the two of us could not
speak clearly anymore. Everything changed in an instant. Priorities
took on a completely different flavor. Dreams needed to be turned
into reality. All of the “if onlys” had to happen now. Now is all
we know.
Just as our family lost our footing we
were caught by hundreds of brothers and sisters, many of whom we have
never met. The love that we have been showered with at this time can
only be described as G-d catching us and cradling us through His
thousands of representatives on His beautiful earth.
As difficult as this time in our lives
is, that is nothing compared to how beautiful it is. The amount of
joy, love, support, and unity we have been privileged to experience
makes me think I understand why G-d created this world. What good He
felt His creations can accomplish, and for what? We've never done
anything that comes close to deserving this, yet here it is.
We have been blessed (understatement)
to find out who catches us when we fall. In other words, we cannot
fall, there is a beautiful net of love surrounding us.
I truly think no change is necessary.
You are perfect! But if you must... Please do one extra kind deed
daily in the merit of my husband. Thank you, you must be making G-d
so proud.
