After taking the time I needed (and perhaps a little
more) to consider and acknowledge all I have lost this year, it is time to
recognize all I have gained. On a scale, the gains far out way the losses. This
year my family grew from the nine of us to all of us. I have met you in my
home, in the streets, online, and thru friends. You have given time, love,
energy and dinner every night to my family. You have cried with us and laughed
with us. We met you on the streets of Jerusalem, Chevron, Temecula, Boston,
New York and Los Angeles. We spent Chanukah and Pesach with you. We are
forever grateful for your warmth and words of encouragement. You tell us your
miracle stories and reassure us that ours is around the corner. You
take my kids to the park and give them an extra hug. How can I say just
say thank you for all of that? Our family would not be where we are today
without you.
Our lives are laden with emotion. Much of the emotion is
love, hope, and joy mixed in with bouts of fear, an occasional angry and a
whole lot of tired. You never judge us, you let us be what we are at the
moment. You cry with us and celebrate with us. You leave us feeling loved
and we are in awe of you.
A few weeks ago, Yitzi wrote on his weekly Torah blog
about the blessings and the curses. The question arose, if G-d is all good, how
can there be curses? And he answers that there are outright blessings and
then a deeper good that comes into the world through difficulty and suffering.
We don't see them as blessings at the onset however with time we recognize how
they are truly blessings.
I imagined a world where everyone had what they needed,
there was no sickness and no problems. The more I thought about it, the
lonelier it seemed. We help each other, we get to know each other. We work
together to make this world better, on a community level and a personal level.
How many people have you met while you were helping someone else? We band
together in times of perceived "curses" and amazing things happen. We
get to know each-other. I am very aware of all of the blessings that have come
from this awful sickness and it is beautiful.
This Rosh Hashana, I am sure your prayers will reach the
heavens. May Hashem answer all of our prayers. May He heal all of our broken
hearts, and may we merit to live in peace and harmony, yet together as was
always the intention.
May you be blessed with a year of revealed blessings for health, wealth, peace of mind, and lots of nachas.
ReplyDeleteI thank you for your strength and love and beautiful words. We met last year on Shabbat at Chabad House in Jerusalem (I was with Dina Kantor's group.) One of the most meaningful evenings of my life.
ReplyDeleteI send my love, good health to both of you for a Happy New Year. Arlene